There are those of us who skip over the word “gluttony” as if it’s not just as deadly as alcoholism or heroin addiction.
We self-righteously claim that those are “worse” problems because “well, we all have to eat.”
But we don’t have to eat junk food.
We don’t have to use food as entertainment.
We don’t have to use food for companionship.
We don’t have to use food for comfort.
But we do.
We tell ourselves that other addictions are easier to overcome just because that is not our personal demon.
Newsflash: The other addictions are not easier to overcome.
My Weight Watchers Leader has a saying, “If hunger isn’t the problem, then food isn’t the solution.”
I am working on sitting and actually feeling the emotions as they pass by me. For some of you, this is a joke. But for those of us who were never allowed to have our own feelings, or express our feelings, the whole emotional realm is a frightening place. It doesn’t get any easier with age because these skills should have been learned while we were still children and were not. Consequently, I don’t possess these skills. A “good” feeling is just as frightening as a “bad” feeling, and both are quieted and stifled by large indulgences of food, as I would imagine alcohol does for an alcoholic and heroin does for a heroin addict. I don’t look down on them; I consider them rowing in the same boat beside me.
So this is the year, 2014, that my personal food demon comes down off the altar. I am not entirely sure how I will accomplish this. But I’m going to give it my best effort.
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I can so relate to this!
Food is my Frienemy.
I am praying for the victory this year!
The food demon is a tough one to beat. Alcoholics or heroine addicts can go cold turkey and get it out of their system. With food you have to eat it every day. There is no miracle cure, no magic pill, just the daily effort to eat fresh, natural food and move about more. The moving about is key, not only does it burn up the food but it’s hard to eat junk when you’re doing some form of physical exercise, walking for instance, and it provides a distraction from the chocolate 🙂
Good point Marie, when you’re busy exercising, it’s hard to keep eating at the same time!