SueAnn Porter

We don’t like to “get our hopes up” about things because when they don’t come through the way we want, it’s painful. But after all these years on the planet, and studying the “hindsight is 20/20” principle, I’ve finally figured out a few things, and I would like to share them with you.

You may recall that I was “hoping and praying” for my son to get a full time job. He had an interview at a company that paid well, they seemed to like him, and I kept seeing the company’s logo in front of me when I went places. So it looked like he was going to get the job.

But he didn’t.

It made no sense to me. He was unhappy, because it  had looked like all signs were pointing to the job.

I went to his house to visit him, and I told him, “We are going to pray again.” I prayed everything I could think of, from knowing God’s will, to breaking generational curses back to the beginning of time. Then I went home.

My phone rang, and it was my son, telling me he had an interview at the company next door to the first company. The hours were better, he would have medical benefits from day one, and he would have weekends off.

Fast forward, yes, he got the job, and someone that works his shift is giving him a ride back and forth to work. This way, my son can save money for a car instead of going into debt to get one.

It’s easy now to say, “Oh, everything worked out.” While we were in the midst of this, it was very uncomfortable. We didn’t know how it was going to work out, but we trusted that God had a plan. Waiting is difficult.

So what I am learning is this: I try to take the disappointing events, and sow them into the ground and let them die so they can be resurrected. Place them on the altar in prayer. Give it to God.  Here is my disappointment, it hurts, I am confused, but you are not the author of confusion, and you have a plan to give me a future and a hope.

I used to think rejection was and end in itself. It hurt too much, and I would stop pursuing the goal. I am now learning that it is just a step in the process of obtaining the goal. It still hurts, but the Grace of God gives me power to keep moving forward.